Hello. Happy Thanksgiving, nearly. Here are the things I am NOT grateful for this year:

1. Not making it to Indiana. Again.
2. Having to cancel 2 vacations this year (New Orleans and Miami) due to health and scheduling problems.
3. Year end is nearly here. This is my 19th year end. I am truly afraid that I can’t do this anymore, but what else can I do?

I feel trapped, unmotivated, frustrated, scared. I don’t know how to change anything.