OK, I think I have figured out part of what is pissing me off. Besides the meatloaf (grrrr).<\/p>\n
One of the managers at my company has just fathered a child with one of the waitresses. He’s got kids from other relationships, she’s got a kid or so herself. And now – da dum! – they are no longer ‘together’. (I only know all of this because she needed pay data for Medicaid).<\/p>\n
DAMMIT. How the fuck do people in willy nilly relationships get to pop babies out the way I pop pieces of bubble gum but I am supposed to wait for the sun, the moon, the stars and my big toe to align??<\/p>\n
I am tired of waiting. I am going to turn 29 (again) in less than two months. I will have been married 5 farking years in July. I even have decent health insurance, so\u00a0that would mean that tax payers would most likely not get stuck footing the bill for Plan B.<\/p>\n
I’m all for waiting for a good time for this, but, fucking A, my most fertile years are BEHIND ME. By the time Mom was my age, she was pregnant with Round Two (Macauley\/Bill). By the time my Grandma was my age, she was somewhere between baby #3 and baby #4.<\/p>\n
I have waited to pay off the car….I have waited to pay off the credit cards….I am waiting for the second mortage\/home equity loan to be paid off and my 401k loan to be paid off (why didn’t I take Gene up on his offer to write a check for the freaking balance last year??). And I AM TIRED of waiting. This is all freaking ridiculous.<\/p>\n
It is time, it is time, it is time. (I almost used the F word in that last sentence, but I think it would have been a little too accurate, yeah?)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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